A Healing for My Soul

A testimony on divine healing…

As those of you that have been following the blog since the first entry know, I was experiencing depression and anxiety between October 2011 and January of this year.  For a while, I was resistant to taking medication because I was afraid of the long term effects and was also afraid I would be addicted to them and not be able to get off.  And, if I’m really being honest, my ego had a real hard time with how it would make me look to be on “meds”.  Eventually, I was convinced by my doctors that medication could support my recovery efforts.  I have been on the medication for the past couple months.

Since I started going deeper in my spiritual development work, I have been feeling like there is no reason for me to be on the medication because my perception of myself and the world has totally been transformed and my connection to God is stronger than it has ever been.  Although I felt this way, I was worried about just going “cold turkey” without consulting my doctor (who recommended I remain on my current dose through June of this year and then re-evaluate next steps).  Then, over the weekend, while listening to an audiobook by Gary Renard, I had an amazing sense of peace and joy overwhelm me…I couldn’t stop smiling and I just felt completely unstoppable!  What he was saying was exactly what I needed to hear – it truly made me feel brand new and reconnected me with my oneness with God.  Then I went to church and was reminded of the scripture I mentioned the other day:

“He that believeth in me, the works that I do he shall do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto the Father” ~John 14:2

I started thinking to myself…”Jesus healed the sick and rose from the dead…if He said I can do all that he can and more then surely I can claim my healing”.  That night I decided to break my pill in half to lower my dose on my own.  The following evening I didn’t take the pill at all.  Yesterday, I started experiencing the depression symptoms again (which, from what I read, is a normal part of the withdrawal process) – and it came back pretty strong…it’s hard to describe, but it’s like a dark cloud has come over you.  It’s not something I would wish on anyone.  I started reading about depression medication and withdrawal syptoms and there were tons of similar stories about symptoms like this.  I read that these symptoms typically last for about 4 weeks.  I almost decided to go ahead and continue on the medication, but instead of giving in to that urge, I decided to pray, I re-read my lesson for the day in the Course in Miracles and I meditated.  Afterwards, ALL of the symptoms were gone!  That was yesterday afternoon and they have not returned since!  I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am divinely healed!  There are so many warnings about getting off this type of medication without the consultation of a doctor…and so many warnings about the withdrawal symptoms…well, I consulted the #1 Doctor…dwelling within me.  And some doctor He is!  What a blessing…

I must add that, while I never was a non-believer, I have always been unsure of my own healing power.  I heard people claim “divine healing” before and I have witnessed people “laying hands” on the sick and healing them, but I always thought that was something I wasn’t gifted with…or that I wasn’t spiritually mature enough to do it.  If little old me can do it, I KNOW we all can.  The kingdom of God dwells within all of us if we believe…

Keep shining!

~Kandace

Disclaimer:  I do not promote going against the advice of a doctor.  Please continue to consult your medical professional regarding the right next steps for you. 

P.S. The song that inspired the blog title is “Healing” by Kelly Price

About the Author: Kandace Jones

I used to live life shackled by fear, doubt, and worry. I put on a happy face while navigating my day-to-day duties, but I was emotionally drained, stressed, and unhappy. When I hit rock bottom, and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I was determined to live life differently. I knew there had to be another way. Out of that determination, and guidance from Spirit, the "Living in the Light" blog was born. It documents my spiritual journey out of the darkness and into the Light. After nine months of publicly sharing my journey, and consciously releasing my attachment to the ego, I experienced a powerful spiritual awakening. I went from living in fear, doubt, worry, and stress to complete inner peace. My greatest passion has become assisting others on their own journey to inner peace. My spiritual memoir, From Stress to Peace: An Intimate Journal on the Journey from Living in Darkness to Living in the Light, is available now on Amazon and BN.com. Click the tabs at the top of the page to learn more about the From Stress to Peace 21-Day Challenge, Living in the Light Retreats, 1:1 sessions, and the Living in the Light Community - all of which are designed to support your journey to inner peace. I appreciate you taking the time to visit the blog and look forward to supporting you in any way I can!