Trying to Fly With One Wing

It’s been a while since I wrote about messages I received via animals or insects.  The last couple times, I received a powerful message about my true Self via a bee, and a reminder to “let go and let God” from a ladybug.  Every time I notice these messages, it’s at a moment when I’m feeling unclear about something in my life.  This time was no different. 

One of my passions has become helping others find inner peace and live life fully.  I had been going back and forth between whether I wanted to become a certified life coach or a spiritual practitioner.  While I had already started a series of classes on the path to spiritual practitioner, I was feeling called to take a series of classes from another spiritual teacher who also trains life coaches.  Something about the initial path I started just wasn’t feeling right.  I even got in a car accident on the way to class, which felt like a sign that I may not be on the right course. 

Part of me also started feeling like I should just study on my own.  I was falling back into my old pattern of trying to do everything myself and pretending I didn’t need anyone.  I was saying, “I got this…I don’t need any certification…I don’t need anyone’s help.”  Ego was creeping back in – BIG time!  At the same time, I kept running across this particular teacher’s organization and feeling drawn to it.  I still wasn’t sure if even that was the right next step.  I was confused, and really wanted to make the right choice.  I was on the website looking around and reading about the life coach certification, when a fly started buzzing around my office window.  I thought it was strange because there normally aren’t a lot of them around when it’s this cold outside, but I didn’t really think about it much longer.

The next day, I noticed the wing of the fly on my blinds.  I picked it up, put it on my desk, and immediately looked up the meaning of flies as well as the meaning of one wing.  There was a powerful message there for me and, I believe, anyone else trying to “go it alone” like I was.  Here are some of the messages I discovered:

• In Greek, the fly symbolizes Omnipresence and reminds us that a divine presence is always watching and buzzing with energy.
• In Native American tradition, the Navajo legend, Dontso, was called the “great fly” and was called during healing ceremonies to eat away dying flesh.  The fly is considered a purifier and is asked to consume negative influences and fly away with them – leaving the afflicted free from malady.
• Throughout different parts of Asia, the fly symbolizes a wandering or aimless soul whose attention is in many places.  This signifies a need to evaluate the nuisances that are bugging you and the need to take stock of irritations that are being held onto.
• In Egypt, the fly symbolizes bravery, courage, tenacity and persistence in the face of opposition. 
• Overall, the fly is a master consumer of waste and signifies the need to look at our “poop” for the purpose of cleaning up what is no longer serving us. 
• In terms of one wing, one of the things I learned was that the one-winged angel has the semblance of an angel, but does not have the ability to fly.  This signifies the need for assistance from another.

The message from this was so clear to me.  While I was created in the image and likeness of God, and have never left Home, I still need some assistance in remembering Who I really am and Where I really am because I’ve spent so much time not believing that.  As A Course in Miracles states (I’m paraphrasing), while we appear to be here (in the world), the Holy Spirit will send us various teachers through which It will remind us Who we really are, and Where we really are.  It is difficult to do this on our own because we’re so stuck in our illusions.  We need the guidance of the Holy Spirit, Who may at times speak to us through others (like the teacher I am feeling drawn to at this time).

“Teach me to do your will,
    for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
    lead me on level ground.” ~Psalm 143:10

In addition, I heard the message loud and clear that I’m not “there” yet.  During meditation the morning before I discovered the wing on my blinds, I kept hearing the word “surrender” over and over.  I know that was the Spirit trying to tell me to get out of the driver’s seat.  In order to get where He is taking me, I need Him to be in control.  While I have come a long way since the deep depression I experienced, I still have to take a look at any darkness that may still reside in me, and release it.  This particular teacher does not sugar coat anything, so it will be impossible for me to hide anything (which is probably why I had some initial resistance).  That certainly is going to take some courage.  I’m ready though, and I know that in order to help others I have to be sure I have fully taken care of myself.  I have faith and know that the Spirit always knows best. 

What about you?  Is there any area in your life in which you’ve been avoiding asking for help when you know you could use it?  The Holy Spirit was sent to help us along the way – to be that second wing – so that ultimately we may awaken and fly in our true Home, where we have been all along.  Surrender with me. 

“I come to you from our Father to offer you everything again.  Do no refuse it in order to keep a dark cornerstone hidden, for its protection will not save you.  I give you the lamp and I will go with you.  You will not take this journey alone.  I will lead you to your true Father, Who hath need of you, as I have.  Will you not answer the call of love with joy?” ~A Course in Miracles (T-11.in.4)

Keep shining!

~Kandace

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About the Author: Kandace Jones

I used to live life shackled by fear, doubt, and worry. I put on a happy face while navigating my day-to-day duties, but I was emotionally drained, stressed, and unhappy. When I hit rock bottom, and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I was determined to live life differently. I knew there had to be another way. Out of that determination, and guidance from Spirit, the "Living in the Light" blog was born. It documents my spiritual journey out of the darkness and into the Light. After nine months of publicly sharing my journey, and consciously releasing my attachment to the ego, I experienced a powerful spiritual awakening. I went from living in fear, doubt, worry, and stress to complete inner peace. My greatest passion has become assisting others on their own journey to inner peace. My spiritual memoir, From Stress to Peace: An Intimate Journal on the Journey from Living in Darkness to Living in the Light, is available now on Amazon and BN.com. Click the tabs at the top of the page to learn more about the From Stress to Peace 21-Day Challenge, Living in the Light Retreats, 1:1 sessions, and the Living in the Light Community - all of which are designed to support your journey to inner peace. I appreciate you taking the time to visit the blog and look forward to supporting you in any way I can!