A Wake Up Call from Spirit

Early yesterday morning, around 2:45 a.m., the faint sound of music coming from downstairs could be heard from our bedroom.  Neither of us had set an alarm on our phones, nor do we even know how to set it up to play a particular song from our music library.  My husband headed down to see what it was.  As he came up the stairs, I could hear the music playing louder and louder.

When he came in the room, I realized he was holding my old phone (I got a new phone a few months ago, but have not discarded the old one).  I quickly turned the music off, as I didn’t want to wake up our sons.  The song playing was “Accept the Prayer” by Rickie Byars Beckwith, a song that inspires the listener to know that God is always there, and that no burden is too hard to bear.

We chatted briefly about how it might be a message trying to come through to us from Spirit.  We speculated that it might be my grandmother or his dad.  We were too tired to discuss it for long, and vowed to listen to the entire song when we woke up.

Later that morning, when we were about to leave the house, I turned off the television so I could put my sons in the car.  My 5-year-old was NOT happy about it, and threw a tantrum – kicking his feet, swinging his arms, yelling, and more!  He was stubbornly staying on the couch and not putting his shoes on (which I asked him to do).  I went in the hallway to put my 3-year-old’s shoes on and, next thing I knew, the TV came on!

“I said no more TV!  It’s time to go, love!” I exclaimed, trying to maintain a firm but loving tone.

“I DIDN’T DO IT!” he yelled.   He was adamant that he didn’t do it, but I didn’t believe it one bit.

A few moments later, it came back on.  As I was about to tell him, once again, that it was time to go (this time, losing my calm tone), I realized that he was still sitting on the couch.  The remote control was on top of the fireplace, where he could not reach it.

Now, I was certain that there was indeed something going on.  I believed it was a message trying to come through from Spirit.  Whether it was an ancestor, our guardian angel or Archangels, a spirit guide, or some other spiritual being that was surrounding us, I wasn’t sure.  I didn’t have time to think about it much at that time, but resolved to meditate upon returning to the house to seek guidance.

(Note:  As I was typing this paragraph, the word count remained at 444, even though I had continued to type.  Yet another sign of the presence of Spirit.  For those who don’t know the significance of this number, or how the angels speak to us through numbers, you can read more about it here or here.)

I got the boys in the car, but needed to run back inside the house to get something I forgot.  While I was in there, the phone turned on by itself yet again.  I said a quick prayer for Light and protection to surround our home, and returned to the car.

I sent my husband a message letting him know what happened, and that I would be using sage to cleanse the energy of the house as well as going into meditation to seek guidance.

When I returned to the house, the music was playing again, this time a different artist.  I turned it off, and began gathering items for a clearing ritual.  I gathered sage, incense, water, a white candle, a photo of my grandmother, and a photo representing the Masters that have come before me – the lineage of those who achieved Christ consciousness (the photo I used this time was one of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene, to represent the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine).

Painting of Yeshua and Miriam of Magdala (or, Mary Magdalene) by the Essene Church of Christ

I started with the sage, and set the intention to transmute all discordant energies to Love and Light.  I purified every room in the house as well as my aura.  I called on the angels, ancestors, spirit guides, and all the beings of Light that surround our family to assist with the cleansing and purification of the home.

After the cleansing, I set up an altar in front of the fireplace, with all of the elements represented.  I set my meditation cushion in the middle of the rug, in front of the altar.  I lit the candle and prayed again for the angels, ancestors, guides, etc., to be with me, to support me in stepping more fully into my Divine Self, releasing any habits that have been holding me back from accelerating toward bringing my purpose to fruition.  I thanked them for all they have done and all of their guidance along the way.  I sought guidance regarding my next step in serving humanity.  I wanted to be sure I was moving forward solely with what is aligned to the highest level of service I can provide in this lifetime.

I poured out water (into a crystal glass left from my grandmother) for the ancestors, and for the cleansing, purification, and healing of the Earth and all of humanity.  Then, I allowed myself to sink into meditation by slowing my breath and focusing on my inner eye.  I began to see swirling violet, white, and blue around my head – a good sign of the clearing of the third eye and crown chakras (I had also prayed to clear blocks in these areas so that I could receive clear guidance and interpret the messages that were about to come through).  It was a beautiful and peaceful meditation, one in which I could feel the energy of Spirit radiating through my entire body.

I was not concerned about receiving an answer right then and there because I knew the way I most often receive messages (as flashes of inspiration, signs, synchronicities, etc, throughout the day following prayer/meditation).  As was custom, the answers began flowing shortly after meditation, and haven’t stopped.  One of the clear messages I received is that I must no longer try to separate my messages based on what I perceived my readers might be open to receive or accept.  I had still been keeping many journal entries, potential blog entries, private because of the feeling it was too “out there” for some (See A Deep Confession for more on what I had been keeping to myself).  So, I saved those more mystical experiences for those who are working more closely with me in the Living in the Light Community or the From Stress to Peace Retreats.

I thought it made sense to go “deeper” with those who are working more intimately with me, and ego convinced me this was the reason I was doing what I was doing.  What I was shown is that by not fully expressing myself in all areas of my life, I am holding myself in patterns that vibrate at a lower frequency than I wish to maintain.  Patterns like fear of judgment or criticism from others can’t vibrate at the same level as authentic communication and full expression.  I was shown that, while unconscious to me, my reason for not sharing some of my journal entries were due to fear of judgment and not solely to allow for a progression of learning.  In choosing to allow that old pattern of concerning myself with the opinions of others to “win,” I kept the cycle of suppressed expression going.

NOT posting the message was sending the signal to Spirit that maintaining an appearance of being “Inspirational, but not to ‘woo woo'” was more important to me than being my true Self…than authentically sharing where I am now, and what is truly occurring for me as I open more and more to the Light within me.  I also heard that it is a disservice to every one of you who has been following the journey, as you have only been seeing the tip of the iceberg in terms of where this journey has taken me (thus, giving you a window into where your journey might take you).  Wow.  That’s deep.

I came here to be the Light (as we all did), and to be fully self expressed (Part of what I came here to do in this lifetime, which has been revealed to me, is to overcome old patterns of blocked self-expression based on religious persecution experienced in past lives.  I am a messenger, and am here to write and speak the Word to all who have ears to hear.).  Every time I have thought I was “over” this fear, I realized there was yet more expansion possible.  I am now allowing that expansion to happen, even by sharing this authentic, raw, entry from my journal.  I am grateful for all that is unconscious rising to the surface so it can be let go.

The process of awakening is not a stagnant one.  There is always more growth to make, as God is eternally expanding.  And you are one with God.  

I also heard that more cannot be given when I am choosing not to be what I came here to be.  My guides wait for me to show them I am indeed ready to be what I came to be (Christ…the Light…however you want to say it) so I can do what I came to do.  No more hiding my Light under a bushel.  It’s time to let it shine – not some of the time, but all of the time.

There’s so much more, but this is quickly becoming the longest blog post ever so I will save that for another time :-).

What about you?  Did any of these messages hit home?  Is there a message that has been trying to come through to you?  How might you make time, in the next day or so, to be still and listen for guidance?  Is there some area of your life where you have not been allowing yourself to be fully expressed for fear of what others might think?  What next step will you take to express yourself more authentically?  I’d love to hear from you in the comments!

I know you can do it, and I know the freedom you will experience will far outweigh any temporary form of fear.  You go this!

Keep shining!

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Kandace Jones
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About the Author: Kandace Jones

I used to live life shackled by fear, doubt, and worry. I put on a happy face while navigating my day-to-day duties, but I was emotionally drained, stressed, and unhappy. When I hit rock bottom, and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I was determined to live life differently. I knew there had to be another way. Out of that determination, and guidance from Spirit, the "Living in the Light" blog was born. It documents my spiritual journey out of the darkness and into the Light. After nine months of publicly sharing my journey, and consciously releasing my attachment to the ego, I experienced a powerful spiritual awakening. I went from living in fear, doubt, worry, and stress to complete inner peace. My greatest passion has become assisting others on their own journey to inner peace. My spiritual memoir, From Stress to Peace: An Intimate Journal on the Journey from Living in Darkness to Living in the Light, is available now on Amazon and BN.com. Click the tabs at the top of the page to learn more about the From Stress to Peace 21-Day Challenge, Living in the Light Retreats, 1:1 sessions, and the Living in the Light Community - all of which are designed to support your journey to inner peace. I appreciate you taking the time to visit the blog and look forward to supporting you in any way I can!