A Wake Up Call from Spirit
Early yesterday morning, around 2:45 a.m., the faint sound of music coming from downstairs could be heard from our bedroom. Neither of us had set an alarm on our phones, nor do we even know how to set it up to play a particular song from our music library. My husband headed down to see what it was. As he came up the stairs, I could hear the music playing louder and louder.
When he came in the room, I realized he was holding my old phone (I got a new phone a few months ago, but have not discarded the old one). I quickly turned the music off, as I didn’t want to wake up our sons. The song playing was “Accept the Prayer” by Rickie Byars Beckwith, a song that inspires the listener to know that God is always there, and that no burden is too hard to bear.
We chatted briefly about how it might be a message trying to come through to us from Spirit. We speculated that it might be my grandmother or his dad. We were too tired to discuss it for long, and vowed to listen to the entire song when we woke up.
Later that morning, when we were about to leave the house, I turned off the television so I could put my sons in the car. My 5-year-old was NOT happy about it, and threw a tantrum – kicking his feet, swinging his arms, yelling, and more! He was stubbornly staying on the couch and not putting his shoes on (which I asked him to do). I went in the hallway to put my 3-year-old’s shoes on and, next thing I knew, the TV came on!
“I said no more TV! It’s time to go, love!” I exclaimed, trying to maintain a firm but loving tone.
“I DIDN’T DO IT!” he yelled. He was adamant that he didn’t do it, but I didn’t believe it one bit.
A few moments later, it came back on. As I was about to tell him, once again, that it was time to go (this time, losing my calm tone), I realized that he was still sitting on the couch. The remote control was on top of the fireplace, where he could not reach it.
Now, I was certain that there was indeed something going on. I believed it was a message trying to come through from Spirit. Whether it was an ancestor, our guardian angel or Archangels, a spirit guide, or some other spiritual being that was surrounding us, I wasn’t sure. I didn’t have time to think about it much at that time, but resolved to meditate upon returning to the house to seek guidance.
(Note: As I was typing this paragraph, the word count remained at 444, even though I had continued to type. Yet another sign of the presence of Spirit. For those who don’t know the significance of this number, or how the angels speak to us through numbers, you can read more about it here or here.)
I got the boys in the car, but needed to run back inside the house to get something I forgot. While I was in there, the phone turned on by itself yet again. I said a quick prayer for Light and protection to surround our home, and returned to the car.
I sent my husband a message letting him know what happened, and that I would be using sage to cleanse the energy of the house as well as going into meditation to seek guidance.
When I returned to the house, the music was playing again, this time a different artist. I turned it off, and began gathering items for a clearing ritual. I gathered sage, incense, water, a white candle, a photo of my grandmother, and a photo representing the Masters that have come before me – the lineage of those who achieved Christ consciousness (the photo I used this time was one of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene, to represent the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine).
Painting of Yeshua and Miriam of Magdala (or, Mary Magdalene) by the Essene Church of Christ
I started with the sage, and set the intention to transmute all discordant energies to Love and Light. I purified every room in the house as well as my aura. I called on the angels, ancestors, spirit guides, and all the beings of Light that surround our family to assist with the cleansing and purification of the home.
After the cleansing, I set up an altar in front of the fireplace, with all of the elements represented. I set my meditation cushion in the middle of the rug, in front of the altar. I lit the candle and prayed again for the angels, ancestors, guides, etc., to be with me, to support me in stepping more fully into my Divine Self, releasing any habits that have been holding me back from accelerating toward bringing my purpose to fruition. I thanked them for all they have done and all of their guidance along the way. I sought guidance regarding my next step in serving humanity. I wanted to be sure I was moving forward solely with what is aligned to the highest level of service I can provide in this lifetime.
I poured out water (into a crystal glass left from my grandmother) for the ancestors, and for the cleansing, purification, and healing of the Earth and all of humanity. Then, I allowed myself to sink into meditation by slowing my breath and focusing on my inner eye. I began to see swirling violet, white, and blue around my head – a good sign of the clearing of the third eye and crown chakras (I had also prayed to clear blocks in these areas so that I could receive clear guidance and interpret the messages that were about to come through). It was a beautiful and peaceful meditation, one in which I could feel the energy of Spirit radiating through my entire body.
I was not concerned about receiving an answer right then and there because I knew the way I most often receive messages (as flashes of inspiration, signs, synchronicities, etc, throughout the day following prayer/meditation). As was custom, the answers began flowing shortly after meditation, and haven’t stopped. One of the clear messages I received is that I must no longer try to separate my messages based on what I perceived my readers might be open to receive or accept. I had still been keeping many journal entries, potential blog entries, private because of the feeling it was too “out there” for some (See A Deep Confession for more on what I had been keeping to myself). So, I saved those more mystical experiences for those who are working more closely with me in the Living in the Light Community or the From Stress to Peace Retreats.
I thought it made sense to go “deeper” with those who are working more intimately with me, and ego convinced me this was the reason I was doing what I was doing. What I was shown is that by not fully expressing myself in all areas of my life, I am holding myself in patterns that vibrate at a lower frequency than I wish to maintain. Patterns like fear of judgment or criticism from others can’t vibrate at the same level as authentic communication and full expression. I was shown that, while unconscious to me, my reason for not sharing some of my journal entries were due to fear of judgment and not solely to allow for a progression of learning. In choosing to allow that old pattern of concerning myself with the opinions of others to “win,” I kept the cycle of suppressed expression going.
NOT posting the message was sending the signal to Spirit that maintaining an appearance of being “Inspirational, but not to ‘woo woo'” was more important to me than being my true Self…than authentically sharing where I am now, and what is truly occurring for me as I open more and more to the Light within me. I also heard that it is a disservice to every one of you who has been following the journey, as you have only been seeing the tip of the iceberg in terms of where this journey has taken me (thus, giving you a window into where your journey might take you). Wow. That’s deep.
I came here to be the Light (as we all did), and to be fully self expressed (Part of what I came here to do in this lifetime, which has been revealed to me, is to overcome old patterns of blocked self-expression based on religious persecution experienced in past lives. I am a messenger, and am here to write and speak the Word to all who have ears to hear.). Every time I have thought I was “over” this fear, I realized there was yet more expansion possible. I am now allowing that expansion to happen, even by sharing this authentic, raw, entry from my journal. I am grateful for all that is unconscious rising to the surface so it can be let go.
The process of awakening is not a stagnant one. There is always more growth to make, as God is eternally expanding. And you are one with God.
I also heard that more cannot be given when I am choosing not to be what I came here to be. My guides wait for me to show them I am indeed ready to be what I came to be (Christ…the Light…however you want to say it) so I can do what I came to do. No more hiding my Light under a bushel. It’s time to let it shine – not some of the time, but all of the time.
There’s so much more, but this is quickly becoming the longest blog post ever so I will save that for another time :-).
What about you? Did any of these messages hit home? Is there a message that has been trying to come through to you? How might you make time, in the next day or so, to be still and listen for guidance? Is there some area of your life where you have not been allowing yourself to be fully expressed for fear of what others might think? What next step will you take to express yourself more authentically? I’d love to hear from you in the comments!
I know you can do it, and I know the freedom you will experience will far outweigh any temporary form of fear. You go this!
Keep shining!
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Kandace Jones
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I used to live life shackled by fear, doubt, and worry. I put on a happy face while navigating my day-to-day duties, but I was emotionally drained, stressed, and unhappy. When I hit rock bottom, and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I was determined to live life differently. I knew there had to be another way. Out of that determination, and guidance from Spirit, the "Living in the Light" blog was born. It documents my spiritual journey out of the darkness and into the Light. After nine months of publicly sharing my journey, and consciously releasing my attachment to the ego, I experienced a powerful spiritual awakening. I went from living in fear, doubt, worry, and stress to complete inner peace. My greatest passion has become assisting others on their own journey to inner peace.
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Oh yes! That's a message that came through to me recently too, loud and clear. I can't quite remember why but this particular week felt as though I had to start speaking my Truth and stop hiding it. On the Wednesday I held my first women's circle with a group of friends who were interested in seeing what I had to say. I had decided I would not mention Jeshua or The Way of Mastery on our first get together in case it freaked them out but I did drop in a little quote out of chapter one of the Way of the Heart, to make a gentle start. One friend said 'oooh,, who said that, is that a Sarah-ism or someone else?' ……… I didn't know, for a second, what I was going to say as, like you, there was a fear that they would never come again if I mentioned Jeshua and that I would be attacked for being 'religious' but I took a deep breath, was reminded that I was supposed to be speaking my Truth nowadays and not being afraid to share it and just told them!!! Before I knew what I was doing I had reached for the WoM blue book and they were all reading Jeshua's promise at the beginning, all nodding and smiling and saying 'I'll have some of that, sounds good!'!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was gobsmacked and smiled heartily inside as I sensed Jeshua at play here ….. I was not going to get away with 'hiding' Him that day!!!! And they're coming back for more too ….. how awesome is that!!! Much love to you Kandace, look forward to meeting you at the Festival very soon xxxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you so much for sharing, Sarah! I have had a similar experience in a live workshop, and everyone responded so positively to the messages from ACIM and The Way of Mastery. It’s so funny how the ego can create a story about how people will respond that is so far from Truth. Yes, I do think Jeshua is at play here :-). So grateful for His loving encouragement along the path! Looking forward to meeting you soon!
I have also been encouraging myself to be more transparent and to be comfortable in authenticity. What I learned from your post is how to embrace visits from spirits and other beings trying to communicate. I normally jump into a panic or fear and then block the messages (and messengers) until I reach a point when I have no choice but to open back up. I will try to be more consistent and remain open, and receive the messages coming my way. – Melissa
Queen Kandace!!!!!!! I sooooo needed this today!!! Thank you for walking in the light and choosing to be your highest self! I can relate to this experience even down to the frequent spottings of 444.
My father transitioned in 2005 from an illness that you and I connected on with an article I shared on FB a little while ago (Malidoma Some). It is his birthday today and on my morning walk I prayed for courage to continue on my path. I spoke to him, praying for inspiration and the strength to carry the torch forward! As walked and focused on my breathing I visualized walking more toward the light, my goals and into a life of abundance. I prayed for Divine Love to come up from the wells of my heart and to once and for all not be afraid of truly being myself. So, my beloved Queen, you have no idea how important it was for me to read your intimate entry today!!! It takes courage to unveil and uncover and be transparent, and I’m thankful to have reflections in my life reminding me to keep going!!!! Love you much!!!
What a beautiful share, Luna! Thank you so much for letting me know this resonated. You are shining brightly, sis! I have enjoyed following your journey as well. As more of us begin to walk in the Light that we are, it’s so key that we join with one another so that we can sustain the awareness of Truth and encourage each other on the path. I actually didn’t realize just how important that was until more recently. I had been keeping to myself for too long. So looking forward to connecting with you soon! I see a collaboration in our future…retreats combined with sound healing and music therapy? Let it marinate 😉
Oooooooo!!!!!! Yes. Yes. Yes!!! Tingling with excitement. I see the vision.
Love it! Yes, embrace the visits for sure! I recommend surrounding yourself with Light daily. You can do this by cleansing your aura or praying to your angels and guides for support in clearing your energy field. This will help to ensure all "negative" energies you may have picked up from others throughout the day are released. This way you're more confident you're only dealing with beings of Light, which helps to release the fear when you see signs of messages coming through. So key. Can't wait to hear what comes through for you next! 🙂
Just remembered something from last night. I finally got the urge to look through a notebook I had been carrying around for a while but not using. I decided that I would give it one last skim through and toss it. I read it from back to front and found it was filled with random notes from different work assignments. None of the pages were of particular interest to me – except for the first.
It was from January 2010. I had written about how inspired and loved I felt by your grandmother. And how one day I hoped to be as committed to my community that others would be impacted long after I left the Earth, just as others had remarked that day. ☺
Awww! Yes, she is so loving and kind. I feel her so strongly around me! I look at her throughout much of the day, as I have her photo within eyesight of my computer. Thank you SO much for sharing that…just got little tingles up my spine. Love her dearly!! And, thank you for the reminder of the incredible impact she made. Earlier today, I was just thinking about how I’d love to do more locally…this is confirmation to follow that nudge.
I must be honest. I have not followed nor read all of your posts, probably only the first 2 or 3, but this morning, I started reading your post today. I was not able to read this portion, and decided that I would look at it later. So, this evening, I am back at work, and I was called to it again, so I opened it and read. I became emotional when I read how you set up the elements and went into prayer and mediation, and tears started to fill my eyes. I had started to read your previous deep confession, but I got “turned off” when I felt that it was becoming too “christian” as I no longer define my spiritual walk in that manner, and in many aspects am turned off by the propaganda spread by Christians (we can discuss why at some other point). But in this message, I felt your energy as a spiritual being and energy and not as a religious one.
I have been struggling/minimizing my own spiritual strength lately, but when I heard the song River Rise (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aElct3DNahQ), I could not deny it. I listened to the song a good 5-6 times one day, and I just kept purging, crying intensely. (I just turned it on) When I hear it, my spirit dances. I have always been a spiritually connected energy, so I feel incomplete, depressed and suppressed when I am not beaming my light.
Right now, I am at a crossroads in my life. I am packing up, leaving a great job, and literally returning home, for so many reasons, but mostly to be there for and heal my Mom. I am going without a job, no savings, and my husband is not coming with me. But I feel the Universe is telling me that I am greater than what I believe, that my purpose, too, is greater and that it is time for me to get ready to be who I am. It feels a little scary because I do not know what that means, but I do know that my impact will be great, expansive, and undeniable. I know the ancestors have put a lot of energy into me, paved my way, and it is on their shoulders that I will stand.
So tonight, I am grateful that I read your blog today. I should be prepping samples, writing a manuscript, and editing another, but I feel at peace that this is where I was lead today. I know the answers are inside of me, and the people and resources I need are around me and coming to me, daily; but why I am not tapping into myself internally, I don’t know.
I had a spiritual reading in the Yoruba tradition, and the Iya told me that my mind is too cluttered and I need to clean it and silence it. I took a bath in Oya energy, and kept laughing, as the water felt like it was tickling me…
I love you, Kandace, my 4/3. Your message today was for me, too. I need not hold back, I must walk in and be a light.
Thank you so much for your response, Yas! And thank you for sharing it here verses via email, as it allows me to clarify for anyone else who may have had similar thoughts.
I had to chuckle when you said you felt the “deep confession” post was too Christian, because when I posted it I was concerned about those who are Christian feeling turned off by it since I mentioned I have been guided to Yeshua’s teachings outside of the Bible. A good reminder of how the lenses we each look through show completely different perspectives, and allow for unique interpretations. I understand your sentiments about being turned off by the propoganda. I was as well, and had began studying other paths. Then, one day, I was guided to look at Yeshua’s story through a completely different lens. Much of his story was left out of the Bible. The fact that he studied, and learned from spiritual Masters in Egypt, India, Tibet, China, etc. The fact that the resurrection was something that was practiced in Egypt, and his final initiations were completed here to prepare him for the resurrection…to demonstrate that we are indeed Eternal…that there is no death…that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. Many who consider themselves Afrocentric have dismissed the Jesus story all together because they believe it was a copy of the Isis/Osiris/Horus story. It’s not that the story was made up, it’s that he initiated into those teachings in order to do what he was called to do: demonstrate the Truth of our Divinity. He did not come to create a religion. He came to reveal our Divinity so that we could, in turn, know it for ourselves. More and more people are becoming aware of this these days, as more and more are awakening to the Light within themselves. So, I believe he was a powerful example of what is possible for us all. He is not the only example, nor does he claim to be. So, I have been guided to share the Way that he released his attachment to ego/body identification and was able to sustain the awareness of himself as Christ (which is not just a name for him, but is the potential that lies within us all). I could say more about this, but I’ll save that for another time :-).
So, after reading your response, I am even more grateful for being guided to share that post yesterday. I am grateful that you were guided to read it, and you saying “I felt your energy as a spiritual being and energy and not as a religious one” means more to me than you know! There were some who, after reading that post, decided to unsubscribe from the list. And I am grateful for that too. I know not everyone is open to teachings like this. Not everyone is okay with believing that there are multiple pathways to realize the Truth of Who we are. But, I can no longer “play the middle” and try to appease those who may not be open to what I am experiencing. My soul is longing to be fully expressed. I trust that those who have “ears to hear” are receiving the message, and are being touched by it.
I love that song you shared! I hadn’t listened to it in a while, so thank you for that. I can see why it brought up so many emotions. Beautiful song that captures the longing of the soul to realize itSelf.
By the way, I had an Ifa reading last year and learned that Oya is my spirit mother, but that Oshun is also very close to me. I honor them both on my altar, and am learning more and more about them. I have great respect for that pathway Home, and I honor the ancestors regularly.
Let’s connect soon. I love that this post has reconnected us in this way! Much love, sis! You are in my prayers as you make this journey home, and allow the path to unfold as it is destined to. Keep shining!
Hi Sara, I have only WoM green books – what is the blue one? do you mean A Course of miracles-book maybe? and can you tell me what Jesus' promise is?:)